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[ the secret's out. ] [Friday, November 07, 2003 @ 05:37p] I'm done here. I really don't care to invest myself into these superficial relationships. For some of you, these kinds of relationships are all you know. Fortunately, I know better. My secrets are my own. If you are so deluded as to think that you were lucky enough to hear things that I've never before said out loud, think again. If any of you would like to keep in touch, I'm sure you have access to my email address/ phone number. I genuinely care about a small number of you, but I'm not willing to fight for a friendship. So, here's to knowing what's really important. 03++

[ right-o ] [Wednesday, November 05, 2003 @ 06:36p] http://members.cox.net/impunity/endofworld.swf That is seriously, like, the funniest thing I've ever seen. No joke. 06++

[ 24// we could kiss and undress or if you want just talk. ] [Thursday, September 25, 2003 @ 10:41p] I love this song. I had a good day. I got to spend some much needed quality time in bed with my boyfriend watching the fresh prince of bel air. It was great. ew. USF sent me a notice of an overdue parking citation. They can suck it because I totally never got a parking citation so it's impossible that I have an overdue parking citation. aw, I get to see the Crayons tomorrow night! and I get to see michael sunday on his birthday. I'm excited. time for bed. 02++

[ 23// put the needle to the record. ] [Wednesday, September 24, 2003 @ 06:32p] Want to find out what pizza you and I can share? Put your name in the box next to mine and click the button to find out! waiting for my sociology test score to be posted online is driving me crazy. I think william might know what I got, but I know he won't tell me. grr. I changed my journal again. It's fucking cuter than ever. 03++

[ 22// she said she'd always been a dancer. ] [Wednesday, September 24, 2003 @ 04:37p] I was bored in between classes. Michael! what time does the show start Sunday? and what time should william and I be there? 06++

[ 21// a notch on my belt is how you shall exist. ] [Tuesday, September 23, 2003 @ 08:53p] I have a paper due tomorrow and a test. And I am prepared! I went down to Ybor this evening and filled out a couple of job applications. I need a job, but I'm really picky. SeeJay and I ate at Big Mouth Burger. The Daryl Palumbo impersonator was working. [!!!] He's so cute I couldn't concentrate on my food. And I think my boyfriend would be okay with that because he loves Daryl more than I do. ++

[ 20// phive. ] [Tuesday, September 23, 2003 @ 12:10a] Dr. Phil is on David Letterman. I want to punch him in the face. 03++

[ 19// cinco de mayo. ] [Saturday, September 20, 2003 @ 10:59p] I changed things up on my journal. You've got to check it out. My journal is the fucking coolest [no contest], and my boyfriend is the cutest [no matter what he might tell you]. 02++

[ 18// oh foolish worker bee, ] [Wednesday, September 17, 2003 @ 03:57p] some one broke into my live journal this morning. I had an algebra test today that I was completely unaware of. I think I did very well considering the circumstances. sad story: I think I absent mindedly threw away a bag with my Andy Warhol watch in it a couple months ago. I just realized it last night, and it kept me up. I had a great morning. Now, I'm going to make myself a cup of tea and take a nap. 01++

[Wednesday, September 17, 2003 @ 05:02a] willi_m rules!!! that is all. 02++

[ 17// the youth and beauty brigade. ] [Sunday, September 07, 2003 @ 10:16p] Last night, I dreamt of stepping out the door in my socks in September and seeing snow. I pulled on my black turtleneck and my boots, and I remember being so excited about spending the day with him in the snow. What's strange is that my hair and legs are always much longer in my dreams. //////////// In other news, I have to be awake in less than eight hours. I'm not looking forward to it. ++

[ 15// baby, I was your whore. who could ask me for more? ] [Wednesday, September 03, 2003 @ 04:15p] I am right in the middle of an awful day. I hate Wednesday's. //I'm not smart enough for my acquisition of knowledge class, my tummy still hurts, I feel like he's trying to hide the fact that we're together from everyone [but I'm sure that's just me being paranoid], and I have to give every last cent of my scholarship money to my father for fixing my car which means I need to find a new job, like, now. 02++

[ 11// I'm such a cunt. ] [Friday, August 29, 2003 @ 12:26p] perpetualteatime: Hello. myelectricxheart: I had my away message up. Are you still there? perpetualteatime: Yes. myelectricxheart: I'm Jessica. perpetualteatime: I'm Chris. perpetualteatime: I saw you on moc, and though I'd say hello. myelectricxheart: well, that's nice of you. are you on moc? perpetualteatime: Nope. myelectricxheart: I see. myelectricxheart: Where are you from, Chris? perpetualteatime: Tampa. myelectricxheart: awesome. myelectricxheart: me too. myelectricxheart: how old are you? perpetualteatime: 19 perpetualteatime: You? myelectricxheart: eighteen myelectricxheart: what kind of bands do you listen to? perpetualteatime: Bjork, portishead, Dylan, Floyd, Joy Divison, garbage, eliot smith. myelectricxheart: awesome. are you in school? perpetualteatime: No. myelectricxheart: so, what do you do? perpetualteatime: Loaf? myelectricxheart: awesome. myelectricxheart: do you live with your parents? perpetualteatime: No. myelectricxheart: right on. that's a step in the right direction. myelectricxheart: do you work? are you planning on going to school? perpetualteatime: No. myelectricxheart: do you do anything exciting? perpetualteatime: No, I don't think so. myelectricxheart: awesome. myelectricxheart: do you have anything interesting to say to me? perpetualteatime: I don't really do much at all. It's satisfying. myelectricxheart: fair enough. I could enjoy that. perpetualteatime: What about you, work, school? myelectricxheart: I just quit my job and I just started school. perpetualteatime: USF? myelectricxheart: yes. perpetualteatime: Like it? myelectricxheart: it's not bad. I'm in the honors college, so I don't have to deal with most of the idiots at USF. perpetualteatime: I find it creepy, I have to drive thru there every so often to pick up a friend. All those popie teeny looking college kids, it's sickening. myelectricxheart: popie? perpetualteatime: Hrm, pop culture whores? myelectricxheart: ah, poppy. I understand. myelectricxheart: Well, it was nice talking to you, Chris. myelectricxheart: I have to go now. perpetualteatime: Bye now. oh, and Elliott Smith is spelled with two l's and two t's. I'm looking for a boy that is attractive, listens to similar music, and is at least as smart as I am. At this rate, I'll never find him. 02++

[ 10// ouch!] [Wednesday, August 27, 2003 @ 05:33p] ( oh, it's just a survey. ) Hiding my septum piercing from my father is not where it's at, but I suppose it'll have to do. Thursday might be my new favourite day- Wednesday definitely is not. We'll see tomorrow. I haven't listened to the Promise Ring in so long. I completely forgot why I love them so much. Guess what I have. An exploding dog picture named after me ---> http://www.explodingdog.com/january2/myelectricheart.html Oh betcha. Sleepover tonight. Class tomorrow at noon. I hope everything goes well. 01++

[ 9// swimming with you in the summer time. ] [Tuesday, August 26, 2003 @ 06:30p] My first two days of class have been okay. Getting up so early has put a lot of stress on my body. I'm still adjusting to all of this. I can feel something shaking, and I think it's me. Pizza for dinner. true. That's all for now. 01++

[ 8// Howard the Duck. ] [Saturday, August 23, 2003 @ 10:53a] Nathaniel made me go to Club Underground with him last night. It wasn't awful. I saw a boy. He saw me too, but I was too nervous to go talk to him. Oh well. At this point, anybody I talk to is just a substitute-- and not a very good one. There were some super squirelly characters at Club Underground, and there were some really pretty girls that I think might not have actually been girls. I don't like dancing to that kind of music, so I just sat on the sofa. It was interesting. 'You can't start a fire worrying about your little world falling apart. This gun's for hire- Even if we're just dancing in the dark.' 01++

[ 7// a letter from Quebec. ] [Friday, August 22, 2003 @ 02:02p] A Sunday in August, 2003 Dear Jessica, Well, here I am in Quebec. I am living w/ a host family so I can get back to my old French fluency. For dinner I had pasta and beer. Not only am I a legal drinker here, but the head host offers me a choice between wine and beer. I recently discovered through many city walks that Quebec and Montreal are at the head of underground culture. I can't wait to learn more. It was good to see you before I left. Please keep in touch- I love you, darling. Don't forget to be crazy, and think of me when you do something I might have enjoyed. I have no address and am still drifting through this change in my life. To top off the madness, I'm living in a pink room for two weeks with a pink bed spread and a pink towel. love through thought, B xxoo here's to perfect timing. 04++

[ 5// the death of foucault. ] [Saturday, August 16, 2003 @ 04:58p] things have changed. and there's nothing I can do about it. and it hurts worse than I ever imagined it could. I want to be with you. the only thing I want more is for you to want to be with me. we can undo this damage. we can start over. I'm done with livejournal. please keep in touch. email: inafitofvanity@yahoo.com AIM: my electricxheart home phone: 813 235 9150 cell phone: 813 892 0473 you kids take care. xo, jessica. 03++

[ 4// chicken and rice.] [Monday, August 04, 2003 @ 08:53p] lowe's home improvement warehouse is like a foreign country to me. I went to pick up locks for my parents and I got lost. then I went to pay and the cashier told me the total was $316.46. I was like 'wait a minute. are you sure? for locks?' I had no idea. I hate moving, but I'm actually looking forward to it now. the kids across the street are the cutest. I met them and their parents tonight. they were much nicer than I expected our fellow home owners on yacht club terrace would be. I want to go to the beach tonight. maybe I'll be able to convince william to go with me. ++

[ 3// one o'clock.] [Sunday, August 03, 2003 @ 01:17a] I can't go to sleep like this. I'm waiting up for you. ++

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